17 May 2021 – by Diana, Photo: Heidi Fin on Unsplash
One of the primary values in my life is openness and, consequently, being authentic. I worked a lot on it, trying to discover what holds me back from being open and expose myself. What is that that is not allowing me to show my vulnerable side? I always thought I have to be tough and strong, not giving people reasons to judge or criticise me. Keeping an impenetrable aura. But lately, I learned so much about myself, that I discovered a new me, which I even didn’t know exists.
And now, let’s exercise openness.
The First Act of Openness
I acknowledge, I didn’t have previously much relevant work experience or success or a fantastic career. And it happened because I didn’t know how to choose a career path that would make sense to me, that could make me happy. I made my choices, not from heart and respecting my internal values but from previous conditioning, based on the accumulated conscious limiting beliefs. These beliefs are a result of our experiences, interactions with other peoples, family, society. They are limiting conclusions and learnings from the past. Our free choice is restrained when we rely on these beliefs.
I was a mother and a housewife for a long time, and I felt so ashamed and incomplete for that, for not building a career. Every conversation with some newly acquired acquaintance began inevitably with “What do you do for a living? Where do you work? After they have presented themselves with half a dozen of positions they occupy, I began inescapably to feel small, unimportant. I thought at that time that my dissatisfaction comes from this. Therefore, I tried to find jobs that could make me look worthy. Wrong! Getting satisfaction and fulfilment from this was like building a durable sandcastle. Adding some job description after my name left me still more unfulfilled and unhappy because those jobs were not resonating with my inner self. Of course, I actually had a luxury problem, not working and still having a good life, without any financial problem. Yet, my perspective was different. A lot of energy and time I spend on things that made me actually unhappy.
It’s impossible to be successful and feel happy and fulfiled so long you make decisions under pressure from the outside, without considering your heart and your values.
I was a mother and a housewife for a long time, and I felt so ashamed and incomplete with that, for not building a career. I tried many times to find a job that could make me happy. Wrong!
It’s impossible find success and fulfilment as long as you make decisions feeling pressure from outside, without considering your heart and values.
My inner struggle was so hard, but the cause was so simple. When I became aware of it, my decision was simple. From that point on, every decision I will ever take has to pass the values and the heart’s test. From that moment, limiting beliefs, such as “you are not good enough!” or “there are so many coaches out there, how do you think you will be the shining drop in this ocean of coaches?” disappeared from my decision-making process. I challenged these thoughts whenever they came into my mind until they didn’t even bother to rise anymore.
This changed everything in my life! I found my calling, I found my vocation. The success still do not come at once with this big realisation. It needs work and dedication. But you know, when you believe something IS possible, no one can stop you. I am guided now by the constant awe generated by seeing a world I didn’t know exists. I am enthusiastic, motivated and determined to make my dream come true. And my vision is to bring more of this awe into the world, more awareness about our true potential as human beings, about our inner resources and hidden strengths. I want to make people aware of their infinite potentiality and inspire them to materialise this potentiality, bringing it into reality.
I want to make a difference.
I learned my lessons, I learned from my journey in life.
The journey continues, and now more than ever, I am conscious about my life and I know how I want to be my journey through life.
I am the hero that will return home with the golden fleece.
Bounded by our physicality and physics law, we still have an infinite potential to fulfil and give meaning and purpose to our lives.
I am like that bear cub that ventured for the first time outside the den and discovered a big, new and fantastic world to be explored.