The Power of Unutterred Words

28. July 2019 – Text original by Diana, Photo: AdobeStock

I closed my eyes, brought my hands together in front of my chest and started: “Our Father … give us, … forgive us, … lead us …, deliver us …”. I continued like this asking for things to happen, with the hope that someone outside of me will accomplish these demands, one way or the another.

Suddenly, the words I was continually repeating in my mind began to get shape and colour, and at some point, they got a reddish glow that becomes stronger and stronger. Eventually, the words themselves lit up with a flaming fire burning my eyes: give me …, help me…, forgive me …. For the first time, I have realised what I was saying. The blaze of the burning words was stabbing my eyes and soul, and they, my eyes and soul, burst into tears. How empty were the words that I thought and I spoke, shapes without substance, empty boxes into the nothingness!

How could I ever expect this emptiness to become something? What am I doing? Millions of people in this world remember God only in hard times. Like them, I kneel then, praying for everything I think is right for me: health, long life, happiness, luck, and many other things that I believe I am in lack of.

If I were Him if I were God, what could I think?
“I have created the man in my own image. I have endowed him with all the necessary qualities for self-determine its life; intelligence, the power to learn, to analyse, to feel and to love and the ability to become wise. And what is he doing? He’s been begging all day long! Father give me, Father do me! I’m tired, I’m really tired of all these wailings! I really gave, and I continue giving him all, minute by minute and second by seconds, but he is too blind to see, too deaf to hear and he keeps asking me unceasingly: Father give me, Father do me, Father help me! Well, my child, I’ll give it to you, but I will not put it in your bag!”. Or as an old British saying says: “he that gapes until he be fed, well may gape until he be dead”

And this begging mind you can find at all levels: a superior instance should give. Would that be the Lord, parents, king, church, or state, all they should give me, take care of me, help me! Let’s have it given to me!
Even Jesus said: “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” (Matthew 7: 7), and He said,” Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” (Mark 11:24). It was really His intend to keep us in this begging state?

What did He meant by saying these words? It is even possible for you to think and feel that you already have something when you know you do not have it?
So, is there a receipt for asking that makes prayers work indeed? What should I do? Just moving my lips in uttering something? Or, should I be thinking and focusing on the words I am saying? Maybe I should speak from my heart, really creating the matching feelings around the words? Or, I don’t even have to ask, because I can create all by myself?

The good Creator has made us humans, in His own image, thus making us also creators. Why shouldn’t I be able to create health, happiness, well-being by and for myself? The Creator has supplied me with all that is necessary to accomplish this.

And Jesus hasn’t left us fumbling around and not knowing how to do it! Ultimately He left us some instructions on how to pray.
As you know, the New Testament includes only four Gospels. In fact, many more were written in the time after Jesus, but at the Council of Nicaea in 325 under Emperor Constantine, who found his power under the patronage of Christianity, the “holy fathers” decided what scriptures and how would they be included in the New Testament. Well, many were excluded, and one of them was the Gospel of Thomas. It was discovered in the early 20th century among the other texts of Nag Hammadi, and it contains many saying and parables shared by Jesus to the disciples, and two of them sound like this:

[48]. Jesus says: “If two people are with each other in peace in the same house, they will say to the mountain: ‘Move!’ and it will move.”
[106]. Jesus says: “When you make the two one, you will become sons of Man and if you say: ‘Mountain, move!’, it will move.”
What really this means? Who are these two people who have to make peace and become one?

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… from the depth of my memory, a dream emerges. An intricated and multi-layered vision that remains stored deep in my mind and at that time, raised numerous questions. Still today I don’t understand it completely.

“It was like I was once in a place known and yet unknown. It was a sunny winter day, crispy cold, and I was taking a walk on the snowy streets of a mountain village. Suddenly, I saw a building that I associated with a temple. I was curious, and I wanted to enter that temple. It seemed strange to find a temple there. I wasn’t aware of it, and even it didn’t fit the place. Arriving in front of the temple, I could see the large and imposing facade, it was like a Roman temple, with a magnificent portal supported by imposing columns on each side. There was a white-bearded old man, which was known to me. He was the watcher of the gate. I approached, wanting to enter. One necessary condition to be allowed to do it was to answer a question. So the watcher asked me: “Do you know who you are?” And I said, “I am two!”. Then I was let in. Looking back now, I really don’t know how this answer has bought me the entrance ticket into the temple. The fact is, a little later I was taken out ruthlessly, probably by the watcher’s watcher, with the help of a phone call! There were things there I, definitely, was not supposed to see!”
But that’s another story!

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It is pretty clear now for me what Jesus has meant. Being two represents the nonunity of thought and feeling. I was often split between thinking (having an idea) and the feeling that came with that thought. The way we are learned to think is often organically contradicting the way we feel! That is why so many wishes are lost in nothingness. They are failing on supporting themselves on the two stable pillars of thought and feeling.

Finally, besides the unity of thought and feeling, something more is also needed, namely, the action. Without concretely acting into the material world following the unified plan of thought and feeling, it’s obvious, I can not bring my vision into reality.

So, the power of prayer consists in merging of imagined and visualised thought with emotions like plenitude, joy, health, fulfilment, gratitude. In this way, you can concretise and make real what you have dreamed and imagined. But is that really possible? In my opinion, yes, it is! Because firstly the mind is over matter. Everything we do in the material world is born first in the mental world as thought or idea, and second, the subconscious mind does not distinguish between the mind world and world outside. For the subconscious, there is no difference between the world of mind and the world of matter. And if the desire for accomplishment is big enough, then the subconscious mind itself will fulfil all of the necessary conditions for materialising the desire.

The image of that I want to reach is now crystal clear. Tears flow over my cheeks, and my chest soars, wrapped under feelings of gratitude, appreciation, contentment, happiness. In this way, I acknowledge the whole universe that my desire is already fulfilled. And what has been accomplished in the mental plane it will find its equivalence in reality.

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At that moment, when my thoughts and feelings are in resonance, two become one. Then can I say to the mountain “Move”! and the mountain will move!

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